have you ever heard the wolf cry, to the blue corn moon...

well how about hearing a wolf howl with the passing sirens because she thinks that they're her friends?

this is pretty much my favorite thing, ever...

i had to video this somewhat secretly, because she gets very self conscious and embarrassed if she knows people are watching her do it.

by this time tomorrow...

it will be 2010

it feels like time is moving simultaneously too quickly and too slowly. some minutes drag on forever, to the point that makes me wish that i was already in california, getting settled in to wherever i end up living. but on the other hand, i am leaving the place that i have called home for the past seven years in a little over two weeks, which makes that period of time seem monumentally short. all i can hope for, is that when the day comes that i have to leave, i'll still feel as ready as i do right now...

a sigh of relief...

is anyone else really grateful that this year is almost over?

i know i am....

bring it on california.

where are you christmas?

this year's christmas was spent in hawaii, not unlike the past five years or so. i'm pretty much used to spending it sans family, which some people may look at as 'sad', but for me, it has always been more pleasurable to spend it with what friends i have had out here than to go and spend it with my resentful mother...but i digress. this year was just another sign, in a long line of signals from the cosmos that i should leave hawaii. don't get me wrong, i love hawaii, it has been a great place to live, and i feel truly blessed to have had the opportunity to be here for as long as i have, but this year's christmas felt...different. in addition to apparently not having any job karma coming my way, i also have no housing karma-even though over the years i have let countless number of people crash at my place, even if they were people that i didn't know at all. when it comes down to it, if people are really in need, i have no problem helping them out. now that i have been, technically, homeless since the 19th, i have not been able to find a solid place that i can stay at.

i guess i just expect more from people. it's not because i feel entitled, but it's the fact that i feel that they should dip into their compassion for others, especially around the holidays, in a predominantly lds church community...

in light of certain recent events, this year has gone to crap. and i keep telling myself that next year will be better. however, that's what i said last year, and i've tried to keep an optimistic attitude, so it's not a self fulfilling prophecy. so here's hoping that this year will be better than the last...

it's the end of an era...

it's official. i have a ticket. i've made appointments at the vet for both animals. i have a quasi job offer.

so for those of you that i haven't told, i'm moving to the san francisco area on january 16th. as for you hawaii folk, let's hang out before i head back to the mainland!!!!

where's your favorite place to eat on the north shore?

so i'm writing for this website now called the examiner, and i am their 'north shore restaurant examiner'. this means that i basically write reviews for any restaurants that i choose, within the boundaries of laie/hauula to wahiawa.

so where is your favorite place to eat? if you tell me, you might see it featured here...

eddie would go....

here's a taste of what was going on at waimea today:

20-40 foot faces

this is how some people watch the eddie:

next up, pipe...

i guess size really does matter...

eddie was called off today-it was a bit too small. hopefully it will be on tomorrow. traffic, however, was INSANE. it took an hour to get from haleiwa to shark's cove.

pity, party of one...

okay so the job search has been going on for about two months now, to no avail, and in addition to driving myself crazy, i am sure my constant presence at home is driving my roommates crazy too. i hate this blasted economy. i wish i had graduated 10 years earlier, when having a bachelor's degree actually meant something. i have been applying to anywhere between 20-30 places, both in hawaii and in portland, everyday, and the only responses i have managed to solicit are ones that seem VERY sketchy. for example, one company wanted me to use their company's service to check my credit report in order to make sure that i was a 'reliable and trustworthy person'.

plus, it's getting harder and harder to get excited about jobs that i see postings for.  i am tired of being disappointed, and turned down by canned responses that go something to the effect of 'after reviewing your resume, you seem very qualified, but not quite right for this job', and if it's a job that i was really stoked on, then i get twice as mad.  

during the two years i worked at nsmh i hired pretty much anyone that came to me asking if we were hiring, so long as i knew and trusted them.  even when i was at ola,  i lobbied for my friends to get hired and always put in a good word.  where is all that job karma now?  not that i always expect things in return for doing a good deed, but i have always tried to help people whenever i could, so i feel like the universe could at least throw me a bone and guide me as to whether i should keep looking for a job here, or just take a huge leap of faith and go to portland...

not that i'm not enjoying my little hiatus from work, and i'm sure i'll bitch and moan about wanting a break once i'm employed agian...but it's kind of boring to be home with nothing to do but apply for an endless stream of jobs that i may or may not actually want to do. though the animals do keep me occupied, and so does tidying up after my roommates, but i miss working.  i like going out and earning money.  it makes me feel like i have purpose in my life, and that i'm not just floating.  plus, since i no longer need to wake up early in the morning, i don't, which is really throwing off my sleeping pattern, since i just stay up really late every night, knowing that i don't have to be anywhere in the morning.  although my messed up sleeping schedule did remind me of a great quote from one of my favorite shows:

carrie:  you're late

big:  no i'm not.  i'm on london time.

carrie:  london is five hours ahead.

big:  well then i guess i'm really fucking late.

i guess for now i'll just focus on making a copious amount of cookies to send out for the holidays.  that is if my beloved dog will stop eating the butter i set out on the counter to soften...

everything must go...

just a reminder, to those of you who happen to live on oahu, that kathleen and i will be having a huge yard sale this saturday-rain or shine.  (though hopefully it will be more shine than rain...)

come help kathleen, and possibly me, get to portland!!!!!!!!!!

here are a few of the items up for sale:

ironing board that hangs over the door-  $10

digital camera (nikon coolpix s9)- $50

window air conditioner 5000 btu-$50

flour and sugar containers- $3 each or both for $5

toaster oven- $15

all prices are negotiable/obo

did i mention i hate friday the 13th?

not that i necessarily believe in superstitions, but when i was chasing after my dog at 2:30 in the morning, in the rain, i may have been converted...

because i fell through the porch once i got back to the house, and it now looks like this:

and this is what my leg looked like a few days later: