i need a distraction!!!!!! i think that maybe the reason why i'm so anxious to start a family of my own, is because i don't really have the greatest relationship with my own parents. it's not like i want to show them up or anything, although nothing would give me greater joy than to say to my mother, 'wow, it is possible to have a relationship with you daughter without wanting to kill each other'.
the truth of the matter is, i don't mind waiting until i'm 30, 40, or even 50 to get married and to start a family. i just need the confirmation that the universe is going to send another good one my way. one that i won't scare off with my alarming neuroses and remarkable self involvement.
well, not to get all churchy up in here, but we do have the assurance that if we are doing everything we are supposed to be doing we will find joy. whatever joy might be for you, me...etc. and so at least you know where to start. and, hehe, maybe toning down whatever neuroses or tendencies of self involvement that have been apparently scaring people away wouldnt hurt either- although i dont see you like that!!! :) i think you are on the right path because you are aware of a need you want to fill and it's a healthy and important need and you can go from there. your friend really did give you the best advice ever last post or was it the one before? anyway, i repeated it to thomas and he agrees that it was stellar. and we both also agreed that you are too and that you have a ton going for you. press forward with hope and work on making yourself the kind of person you would want to be around and you cant go wrong. you are fabulous!
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